hi all..it's been quiet long i haven't shown up
actually it's been a year
anyway where to start..since this is my very first journal so
first of all i would like to thank people out there who encouraged me to have an account n upload my works in DA
and also for everyone who's been really supportive and nice to me ... many thanks for the watch and the comments..u have no idea how much it means to me..

i never had the confidence and the brave to consider my self as an artist(which is stupid) but then seeing how many ppl watched me and had my drawings in their fav list made me realize one thing..
"i'm not as bad as i thought"..

so since i'm getting watched by a lot of ppl i feel that i'm pretty much occupied now ...i'll definitely start uploading new stuff soon!! actually i have made couple of drawings but..i've got a problem with my scanner i tried to use my camera but it didn't give me good results so in the meantime i will see what other stuff that i can upload..

one more thing i want u to know that in the future i'm going to do more of digital drawings and graphic designing..and less of traditional drawings, i'm not really sure i will draw pencil drawings since it takes ages to finish a piece and i have figured out that i'm just not into it ..maybe i'll try different style, but i still don't know yet

so yeah wish me good luck in everything i do..
,,i seriously need to get my artistic mood back ..
..it's been so hard to get in the good mood over this year..i seriously want to move on..

lately i've been trying to make new friends but i still feel that i'm just missing something i'm not sure what it is...i feel that i'm just so damn lonely,, so sad, too emotional ..and easily lose my temper..and it almost cost my friendships
i'm worried and i really hope things will get better

hopefully